own a buz 20: confused within the confusion

[makingmagic]

ohhh thanks everyone... I was saying that I wished that I had said that in hindsight, not that I was looking to say it currently.

Im pretty sure we had a GOOD day today:

Met H at work, I was late... (he didn't comment about it). We shovelled alot of snow together. Then he disappeared to pick up burgers and coffee (would have been a surprize if I hadn't called wondering where he disappeared too). We sat and ate & lightly discussed movies. Then back to work. Shovelling some more, I decided to start throwing snowballs at him. He smiled and acted shocked at first, I kept throwing until he said he wasnt liking the snow as he gets enough of it. I said OK, but he makes a great target. He said "Im sure I am" but I said that I was not aiming for his head. A little later, both of our phones were dead and we went to plug in. This was the FIRST time he has left his phone unguarded... he even went on a test drive and left the phone behind. I did not look at it (although it has a pw anyway). Then it was time to go, and he drove me back to my house. He stopped for a few groceries on the way, my sock were soaked and I was warming my feet on the car heaters...he asked if I needed anything. I did, cereal. When we got back to my place, I did NOT ask him to come in, but thanked him for the cereal. Im pretty sure that he said we had a good day. When I got in, I took a pic of my soggy socks pinned up against my fireplace & text sent it to him and my DD. Saying "does this count as hanging your stockings on the mantle? LOL, im early. He didnt reply, but my DD did. She said that he may not have gotten it as it was a group message. SO, about a half hour later, I resent it. He replied "I will stick with the pleasant memories I have of other Christmas stockings we shared". I replied "awwww, so sweet. did I send that pic to you twice?" explaining that I had sent it to DD too. He replied "yipx2" and then "cant take away the good memories"......

AWESOME !!!! BUT, I cannot get too excited about this stuff as he has admitted to me many times before of how he loved our Christmases, etc.... I cannot assume that this is him warming up... just being nice.

Lowered expectations.

But... nice of him to acknowledge.

When I stopped replying... he texted my daughter...