Thank you Job, I know that I need to lean on God but I am struggling. I need to trust more in the process don't I.... I know that all that you say is wise and true and my instinct tells me exactly the same thing ....I am surprisingly not in any way tempted to contact him. However I miss him, miss his voice and his presence (in some respects).... I think it has made it all the more confusing re OW as I am only just starting to compute this - as I was moving my things form his house last week I didn't allow myself time to fully take OW into account. Now it is hitting me. I realise that there so nothing I can do. I do find comfort in reading and educating myself re the circumstances, particularly reading about depression (covert etc) so if you have any other advice, links to threads aside from the one that you have posted me I would be very grateful/ I really want to try and empower myself with the knowledge of what is happening, fully, so that I am not overwhelmed by it all. I wish I wasn't struggling so - but I guess this is the time when I need to lean on God the most... Thank you x
