My H is making it really difficult to go dim this month. My H was out of town this weekend. He sent several texts on Saturday with pictures to share with the boys. I shared the pictures with the boys but did not respond.
Before the start of the game, H called from the stadium. I answered because I assumed that he wanted to talk to the boys. H was actually calling to show me the view from their seats. They wound up having amazing seats and I was genuinely happy for them. I am a HUGE sports fan and that is something that H and I always shared. H sent a few more texts after the game and I wrote back once and just said that I was glad they had a good time.
I woke up in the middle of the night because of this cold I cant shake. I looked at my phone to check the time and saw that H had called and also sent a text saying "what are you doing." It was 230 am. What does he think I was doing?
I actually think that it was easier when H hated me and refused to talk. This one foot in and one foot out game is so hard. I am just getting tired of it.
I hope you have your 2x4s ready for this one...I logged onto FB. After weeks of avoiding it, I logged on. And what did I find ... comments from OW all over H's and BIL's posts (they all work together). All innocent comments but I just hate that H continues to let her be in his life. I think that I just needed to see that NOTHING has really changed.
I am getting used to my life without H. My weekend alone with the boys was nice and simple. I miss simple.
