I just don't know what to do.

I guess I'm not done.

I've told him to end it. He ignored me. So now we're...still in limbo. I just can't believe that after a year of fighting to save my marriage he's going to make me end it. I don't want the freaking divorce. But I also don't want to be lonely and in limbo for the rest of my life.

Why won't he end it??

So now instead of being adamant we need to save it like I have been since BD...I'm feeling on the fence too. I'm not even sure it can it should be saved or if I want it. But I'm not sure I don't either.

I could use an attitude adjustment from a vet.