Then I saw the cutest elderly couple yesterday at Whole Foods. They both walked very slowly but he was still helping his W navigate the snowy parking lot. They were both so kind, chatting with the cashier and the W with me. It made me feel so happy for them, and so f-ing sad for me, because that was what I wanted with H, and that dream is gone. But who knows, maybe I can find it with someone else someday. And you can, too, Mimi. You are young, and smart, and have so much to offer. Your biggest problem in finding someone will probably be that you are so much more evolved than most people your age.
When I see cute couples, I usually think the exact same thing. I have started to remind myself that I am just seeing a small piece of their life and don't know their story. I tend to see an old couple and think "how cute..they are probably high school sweethearts who are now growing old together." Yet, I have no idea. They could have met last year or years ago after they each D. It is the same reason I got off FB. My H post pictures of himself doing stuff with the kids to get comments of "you are the best dad ever." Yet, people have no idea that my H was MIA as a dad for a year. I think that we do more harm than good when we look at others lives and compare them to our own because we never know the real story.