I guess that I am really starting to think whether I actually want my H back in my life. Even if my H wanted to R, would I ever be able to go to Vegas/anywhere and have a blast without worrying if H would get out of control? Would he address his drinking problem?
I know that there are no answers to these questions, but I need to start thinking about whether I want my H and not just whether my H wants me. The one thing that I do know, is that I feel better about myself. There was nothing wrong with me. I was just trying to cope with a problem that was out of my control.
I am actually going through the same mental process. W was often belittling to me in public and has been embarrassing on several occasions. I still am processing everything. We didn't have drugs, or drinking or cheating as problems, but indifference and respect were real issues. I don't want to do that again and I am not sure how much things can actually change.
me: 47, W:49 M 16.5 years T 17 years Three kids - D17,D14, S13 Heart 2 heart about M 11/8/13 Bomb drop 11/29/13 W moved out 12/5/13 I Retained L 2/20/14 D filed 3/17/14
