Well the appointment went very well. I enjoyed her business, managed to not only meet but beat the prices and The Red Door. She was pleased, I made one hundred dollars for forty minutes, and we were both happy!
I lit another candle and forgot to blow it out. So I guess I'm not going to be lighting anymore. It caught fire. No damage , it was contained in a large glass container. God was watching out ! To top it all off I locked myself out of my car at the movie theater tonight. I got to wait an hour and a half to pay a cab driver fifty dollars to unlock my vehicle...
Am I down about this... Hell no. It doesn't come close to BD May 2013!
Bust on!
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
How are things coming along around your home? How are you doing?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Thanks for asking, and thanks for the congrats. Well the esthetician room is pretty much completed. I just need to do the ceiling. Tomorrow a friend/client is coming over. She is a regular facial. I have cards that she wants to hand out, so maybe I'll get one or two more clients.
I am going to work on the hallway next. This way the upstairs is completed.
How am I doing? Well lots of new things going on, as you can see. I went on my first date yesterday! Nice guy, former Marine Judge Advocate, currently an attorney practicing a bit East of me. I like him, he's a gentle giant , over 6'5 and moves with ease. We have much in common, taking it very slow. For obvious reasons. Don't worry, you don't have to admonish me about anything, I'm not stupid nor am I going to place myself in a situation that may come back and bite me.
Did some DB-ing with him. He's more quiet than I'm used to, so I would throw out a question, and let him deliberate. It about killed me when he read the menu, in complete silence. I'm so chatty, and used to the same. I'm still learning. He also was a physical contact person, again, not used to being touched. I was acutely aware of where his hands were. You'd think with all the dancing I've been doing I'd have adjusted by now... I guess it's different when someone places there hand at the small of your back when crossing a street or lightly touches your knee in conversation.
He did give me a kiss and a hug goodbye at my car. Felt strangely comfortable, go figure when the other touches were burning my skin.
It was four and a half hours of chatting with a peppering of flirtation.
I'm going to be just fine. Never thought I'd get here so fast, but I am here. It is so much easier when I don't have to see, interact or communicate with H.
My attorney will be filing the P.L. after Valentine's per my request. I don't want to taint yet another holiday . I will give him a wee heads up, for I would want the same.
Dancing just gets better and better, new friends and loving it. I am still losing weight, while exercising judiciously. Feel good, look good, and whatever happens, well it will just happen!
My girlfriends have been very supportive, and give me the space I need. I still like being with me, and working on myself in private... physically private! HA!
Hope it snows again soon. I just love it and getting out on the trail to x country ski.
Do I wish my husband hadn't run away? Yes. Will I be okay, absolutely! Who knows, perhaps even better?
I am enjoying my daughters, and my oldest is reaching out a bit. I am DB-ing with her as well.
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
wow amb, I was wondering about you! what progress! maybe hope for me too! I took my first dance class. It was fun, weird, fun. couldn't believe how many students. I just did a private but dancers were all around. don't know if I will continue or not. With my classes and kids at home,i stay busy. Plus I like yoga- the time for introspection. only so many hrs in the day. Good for you though Amb. I am still currently stuck in the land of limbo
M48 H50 M21 T26 S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old PA confirmed 7/2012 H separates 9/2012 H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY OW still in picture. h filed 10/13
The key to the Swing dancing is to take a class with lots of people. It is a step in confidence, being touched by someone other than your husband...
Yes I've come along way baby. Last week... four dates in person, and two online! I'm learning a great deal, and having a ball. My confidence is back, I look and feel fantastic. Moving on. Love my gift of time and to be the best me EVER!
H. is in deep dark secretland...and I'm feeling so FINE. Life is good, and we've had SNOW... what more could I ask?
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
Have you given any thought that maybe you are feeling a bit down is because of the snow and not being able to get out? When you are home alone and the world is quite because of a snow storm, it does tend feel lonely. The temps will warm up just a wee bit tomorrow and then we have the possibility of another "light" snow tomorrow night into Saturday morning.
It's also the eve of Valentine's Day and a lot of people get sort of down because that particular day always reminds us it's about "couples". But you know what, you can do something special for yourself and enjoy the day. I've always thought VD was overrated.
The pain you are feeling is both part of the healing and the only way to leave it behind is to work through it to get to the other side. Feel the pain and the release it. There is no side stepping this or it will raise its ugly head again very soon.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
