Isn't it great to have these kinds of realizations?
And sad that, until we challenge it in our heads and come to these realizations, we think something is wrong with us? Blech. That comes up for me quite often.
Did your H tell you things about you? (Things that he determined were negative, of course.) Mine did all the time, and if I disagreed with his perception, he would argue with me and try to prove that he was right.
Back to you. YES. You do need to decide whether you want your H back in your life. Well, I guess you don't need to decide, but it's good to think about - I think that removing our Hs from their (largely undeserved) pedestals will be a big help in detaching.
That trip was so good for you, 3. Look how much you have learned and how many steps forward you have taken in the past few weeks. Good for you.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14