bent not broken

[willbwell]

had to laugh job, thank you! He is a nutty buddy!
worried about s17. impossible to not worry about a child.

s17 raced in his sport yesterday. I think he was really expecting to come in 1 or 2.

he ended up 4th and got beat by 2 freshmen from his own team. the coach was stacking the races so the overall team would win as opposed to the individual event. the 2 freshmen would have lost had they competed in their own division.
still numbers are numbers and s17 felt greatly disappointed.

he internalizes everything. h is never around to talk with him. I just feel like he is so on his own. s17 doesn't want to talk with me. he gets mad when I say anything to him be it about school or his sport.

I hate this sit for s17. I think boys need their fathers more than going to dinner once a week. I can't be his father.

my father died when I was 6. I grew up without a dad. I know what that is like, and btw, my brothers are now great fathers- both have 5 kids both have 4 boys and 1 girl!

but my sons have a living dad who doesn't want to be engaged with his children. Such an awful shame. I pray for h. I pray for my children.