Going out & GAL isn't to game play, it's to keep your mind off of your sitch, boost your self esteem by doing things that make you feel good, remind yourself of who you use to be (or help you on the path to be the woman you want to become).

I think you're feeling that way b/c you are scared to push your H further..... but this all has to be for you, not him. If he's going further away, he's going further regardless of if you GAL or not.

me: 30 H:30
tgthr:7 m:4
no kids
5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012
long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012
official BD: July 2013
nothing filed
1/1/14 I dropped the rope