Don't Break Character

[Raine]

job, I know! Can you believe it has been that long? The time has just flown by. I remember being in the thick of it, how the days would drag. But now there just never seems to be enough time for anything. You're post made me smile. Thank you for all of your amazing advice and insights. You have helped me so much through this.

<3 you, T2

Bklyn, you know what...I wouldn't be surprised if he did. He has done some pretty amazing things for me, and I know he is scheming for things. He has already said that our anniversary is going to be amazing. And I'm being good about sitting back and letting him drive, instead of being the planner and doer.

CC, you know, I still struggle with that. I know it's crisis. I know who he was during the crisis/replay was not the man I knew before, nor is he that man now. But I still struggle with that. Even now the reasons he has given for why he felt we needed to S or D is that I would talk to him late at night about things when he wanted to go to sleep, I would think too much about things he said and ask for clarification, and that he felt trapped when we were talking about getting pregnant and he said that he didn't think we should because he was concerned about my health, which I countered as that was really sweet of him to worry, but not a concern. So. Yeah. I struggle with those being the reasons to justify divorce, cheating, abandonment, etc, etc. It helps me accept that it was a crisis, but it's still a difficult pill to swallow. He does talk about that it doesn't make sense, and they are not big deals. They are not deal breakers. But at the time and in his messed up mindset, they were huge.

And he is home early....I'll check back in later