Sorry to hear about your situation. I too feel like I'm at "the fork in the road." Even after almost 2 years, I still waiver on what I want to do. I think for me, since I do still waiver, I'm not ready to initiate a divorce (I had thought I was ready back in Sept and even told H I was but have since changed my mind!).
Hang in there, keep living for you and doing what's right for you, on your own timeline not anyone else's and then you will hqve no regrets