Don't Break Character

[TSquared2]

I really love these, this is the/a point of the journey, imo:

I was hanging on for him, to get him to a better place. At that moment there was very little there I was hanging on for me. It was then I knew what it felt like to love someone without condition. I had no expectations. My expectation was that he would get through this, and we would go through divorce, and we would be very good friends and co-parents. My fairytale of the MLC journey of yucky-replay turn to eternal, romantic bliss was gone. My second fairytale was gone. My calculations of one year were gone. I didn't hold onto that anymore.

But that year mark came and things were changing. Things were changing just like that old Raine in the bunker after BD always thought they would. She knew that if she did her part, the rest could be possible. The rest could be possible if she gave H the chance to do his part too.

and:

I told H about my fairytales. I told him how BD destroyed my fairytale of guarantee, of us being together forever, no worries, complete trust. I said, "You know there are bad things with that, but there are very good things with that too. I had a very innocent, tunnel vision of things. My scope has been opened. That allows me to see and feel so much more. I appreciate what we have, because I know that it is not guaranteed. I work for it, put my heart into it, because it means so much more now than it ever did before. Everything has meaning. I have compassion, understanding, and love, on a deeper and greater level than I ever could have before."