Listen to everyone's advice for a change. Stop pushing for a talk even though you keep insisting that he wants it and asked for it. All it does is freak you out. Just converse with him, slowly flirt, maybe give him a light, encouraging touch every now and then and see where it goes from there.
The one thing you haven't learned at all is PATIENCE. Patience doesn't mean that you don't do anything, it means to have peace within yourself and to let things go at their own pace. You can't seem to do that and if this is how you were with your H, it must have been exhausting for him.
Same advice as was given to you countless times.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
