WANT TO COAST ON FLAT LAND

[Ambivalent]

Hi Job,

Thanks for asking, and thanks for the congrats. Well the esthetician room is pretty much completed. I just need to do the ceiling. Tomorrow a friend/client is coming over. She is a regular facial. I have cards that she wants to hand out, so maybe I'll get one or two more clients.

I am going to work on the hallway next. This way the upstairs is completed.

How am I doing? Well lots of new things going on, as you can see. I went on my first date yesterday! Nice guy, former Marine Judge Advocate, currently an attorney practicing a bit East of me. I like him, he's a gentle giant , over 6'5 and moves with ease. We have much in common, taking it very slow. For obvious reasons. Don't worry, you don't have to admonish me about anything, I'm not stupid nor am I going to place myself in a situation that may come back and bite me.

Did some DB-ing with him. He's more quiet than I'm used to, so I would throw out a question, and let him deliberate. It about killed me when he read the menu, in complete silence. I'm so chatty, and used to the same. I'm still learning. He also was a physical contact person, again, not used to being touched. I was acutely aware of where his hands were. You'd think with all the dancing I've been doing I'd have adjusted by now...
I guess it's different when someone places there hand at the small of your back when crossing a street or lightly touches your knee in conversation.

He did give me a kiss and a hug goodbye at my car. Felt strangely comfortable, go figure when the other touches were burning my skin.

It was four and a half hours of chatting with a peppering of flirtation.

I'm going to be just fine. Never thought I'd get here so fast, but I am here. It is so much easier when I don't have to see, interact or communicate with H.

My attorney will be filing the P.L. after Valentine's per my request. I don't want to taint yet another holiday . I will give him a wee heads up, for I would want the same.

Dancing just gets better and better, new friends and loving it. I am still losing weight, while exercising judiciously. Feel good, look good, and whatever happens, well it will just happen!

My girlfriends have been very supportive, and give me the space I need. I still like being with me, and working on myself in private... physically private! HA!

Hope it snows again soon. I just love it and getting out on the trail to x country ski.

Do I wish my husband hadn't run away? Yes. Will I be okay, absolutely! Who knows, perhaps even better?

I am enjoying my daughters, and my oldest is reaching out a bit. I am DB-ing with her as well.