Afraid I have waited too long

[nit84]

Well the talk about the bills came and went.

WE worked through it ok. She explained how she felt things are too expensive nowadays I agreed and said everything seems to be costing more.

Specific to the cable bill. She said she hardly watches TV because she is a prisoner in her(our old room) own bedroom. "This room has a TV.", I said, she said "It might be on but I don't watch I am on the computer so I just use the wifi and that's it." If we cant change it and I want to keep the sports package then she said she just wont pay for it.

I asked her if she thought this was fair since over the summer when she was watching TV and I wasn't living here hence not watching TV I still paid 1/2 the bill.

She said that is different We had an agreement. Im thinking at this point yes we did and still do... to split everything in half. Didn't say it though.

She said she would turn in her cable box and stuff I said don't worry about I will use it for the TV I won last week.

She said "that means we will be paying for another box" I said "no, I will use the one you said you wont be using." she said "we will have to pay to run another line." I said "we will get a splitter." It sounds like this was confrontational but it wasn't. Just back and forth.I miss talking to my W.

Then she hit me with a zinger. She said" Oh now we will get a splitter? I've wanted a splitter for the living room for 10 years to put a TV in there. I said"ok, we can put it in the living room no problem."

What she said next got to me a little but I didn't let it show.

she said "no reason to put it there now, we are packing up to leave."

I said "oh ok then my bedroom it is."

She didn't pack anything else up today just what I alluded to in my previous post.

What she said struck me though.

"we are packing up to leave." meaning her and I. Umm I am not packing anything up. I am putting things away But not packing them up.

Now this brings up the issue of improvements. I planned on starting to paint in the Dining room/living room which is where she is packing things up from.

This is great, less things in my way to move and paint around. When I bring this up or just start doing it. It most certainly will be asked why am I doing this when we are leaving.

The obvious response is that it needs painted to get a better offer if we go to sell it. The problem with this is I don't want to sell it But I am not sure I can afford it on my own. I think I can but not 100% positive.

After we finished she thanked me doing what she asked and left. It wasn't that bad after all the worrying I did about it. She also did say a little about not having much money. I didn't pursue the topic. I figure in a week or so when more bills come due that topic will resurface. We still have joint accounts so I can anticipate when the next discussion will happen.

I think I could have done a better job with certain parts of the conversation but it is a start.

One thing is bothering me though. The prisoner in her own bedroom reference. She never gets home from the gym till it is almost time to go to bed after making her dinner. On several occasions I have offered to go upstairs while she comes downstairs and watches TV while having her dinner. She has never taken me up on it and just retreats to her room with the door shut.Other than not being downstairs watching TV when she comes home which will allow to use it. I don't know any other way to prevent her from feeling this way.