Not really sure WHAT to call this crazy...

[PortiaM]

Today he finally remembered that I had a dr. appointment yesterday, so he asked me how it went.

(sigh)

He also texted me throughout the morning. "Whatcha doing?" and told me that he's not feeling well (he has a cold) and he wanted some cold medicine. Dude...Get some sleep tonight rather than going on your date. So not going to happen, I know.

Breathing, breathing, breathing....and not waiting to hear from him. I have no idea what time he got back to his hotel last night, and I'm sure I won't know tonight either.

He's definitely trying to have his cake and eat it, too. And while the relationship had not gone full blown PA before he left, I have no idea if it has this week. Should I ask? I'm not sure he'll tell me if I don't ask...

Ugh.

He's trying to stay connected to me while totally playing out this other crazy. She's a stinking newlywed who just got back from her honeymoon. Seriously??? Can we talk about the fact that she's going out with my husband multiple nights in a row three days after she got back from a three week trip with her own husband??? What in the world is HE thinking????

This is just so so crazy.

I've got to keep things together here though. We've got family coming to see the 15 year old in a play next weekend. Smile, breathe, keep up appearances....good grief.

I did finally ask one friend today to keep me in her prayers. I've not told anyone about what's going on. She asked if the kids were okay and if my health was okay. I said yes, that I was just sad. She said, "I've seen some of life. Let me know if you want to talk about it." It's tempting, but the world is small, so for now I'll just take some prayers.

Today I was grateful for a great yoga class and a good bike workout. There. Now I'm smiling.