still hopeful... no matter where life takes me

[bluesgal]

That's such a great point that I've never thought about, Julie. I am working so hard to detach from negative, but I hold on to those positives b/c that's what we all want, right? I guess detachment really needs to be full circle.

I understand the weepy thing. Whenever someone does something kind in the past few months, I just lose it.

Yesterday I came home from work and D15 had cleaned the entire house and shoveled all the snow outside. To see her pitch in when our family is breaking down is so heartmelting.

I hope the meds help ease your anxiety. They are meant for times like this in our lives.

I'm glad your H has had little peeks of normal. Does the contempt ever go away? I have this sinking feeling that we could fast forward 50 years to the nursing home and I could overhear my H say "and it was all her fault".