So you're dating......good for you!

[CallaghanClown]

I took a little break from here. I've filled it with some good and bad days. My H has mainly filled it with bad days. His highs seem higher and his lows seem lower.....I'm not sure what that means but I don't get involved anymore. I struggle enough some days without jumping on his roller coaster.

I'm having less and less bad days. Yes I've had one today, but I can see them, wallow in them and move on faster and faster. I'm happy with my progress. I'd love for this all to be over today. I just sick of this dramatic lifestyle at the moment but I'll have a great sleep and be happy Callie tomorrow.

I've asked H if we can meet to discuss a few points....money, access with the kids, what happens in the event of one of us dying suddenly......a long shot I know but I've had a sudden death in the family and I just need to know his wishes. With his complicated family structure I know his family wouldn't want me to be at the funeral, so I need to know his wishes so he actually gets what he wants. I wouldn't recommend this conversation for others without the complication of a disfunctional family on H's side.

I'm not sure of the status of the OW, I mainly don't care. As far as I'm concerned, of H and OW are having a relationship that needs to be hidden, then it's not much of a relationship. Best of luck to them.

H is still in replay but has shown signs of withdrawal and depression. The kids are starting to find it hard now. When he withdraws from them they just don't understand but they relish his good days as they're so used to his bad days.