Lip service. What you don't realize is that you've had this problem for awhile and when you get called out on it, you apologize, but continue to do it.
Any changes you make have to be practiced on a consistent basis in order to become habit and an actual part of who you are. And being 'sorry' for something is meaningless if you keep doing it without understanding why. It's like M. You don't want your spouse to just say 'I'm sorry' for something you don't like but then they keep doing it. Then it makes it sound like they're not listening to you.
WAYYY back when, I recommended that when you speak to your H, after he talks, you repeat back what you said to him to show you were listening and 'understand'. You should do that here.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
