If you are looking for people who have had mlc experiences, then start visiting the other posters' threads. Read ALL of the threads that Sandi and Wonka have created if that will help you...but YOU have to do some of the educational work on your own.
One more time...go back and re-read all of your threads. The advice is the same and more of the same from day one when you first came to the Newcomer's Forum. If you have issues reading what is on the screen, then print your threads off for future reference. Sometimes having the printed document helps some people with reading and comprehending a bit better because you can hi-light those areas that you want to refer back to at a later date.
Magic, we ALL have had relationship experiences whether it is with the walkaways or MLCers. The advice is the same.
There is absolutely no magic potion that will fix your problem. The only one that can do that is YOU. YOU have to decide how you are going to react/act around your SO. No one can tell you how to do that. You are a grown woman, so put your big girl panties on and start doing some thinking for yourself. If something doesn't work, try something different...but understand...we can't tell you what to do each and every time you have an encounter w/your SO and you start spinning.
Go over and read LoisB's last couple of threads. She has gotten a good handle on her spinning, but she had to delved into her life and face some demons, insecurities and doubts about herself and her life and how she's handled things. She's an excellent example of looking within in order to find herself and how to deal w/her situation. Yes, she stills has struggles, but they are no where as bad as they were several months ago.
I am going to repeat something that I posted to you earlier, if you are not satisfied w/the advice you are getting here, then contact Michele and schedule a coaching session.
BTW, I don't want to hear any more excuses! Find those big girl panties and put them on!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.