Ugh. Three more days left at the school conference. I love it. But the anxiety is creeping in... I miss my kids. And the weirdness of h being with them while I am out of the house is creeping in. Meaning: my family are at home together and all I want to do is be with them. But the only reason they are together is because I am not there. Me being there will send him away again.

Oh what's wrong with me? How can I feel so blue after all of the small positives that have happened over the months? Should they have added to the PMA I was nurturing?

There really is no place like home

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home