Reaching out for support and advice 2

[bluesgal]

Today I thought about my life and for the first time I felt like I was going to be ok. Not just a quick thought, then fear. But, the real deal. I will be ok. My kids will be ok.

My H is in a darker place than I could have ever imagined. Today he has been sleeping. All day. He claims he's sick. The kids were home from school due to cold temps and D15 was stressed out b/c S6 had only eaten potato chips all day and played video games while H slept. D15 cleaned the entire house and shoveled all of the snow (a lot). H never told her he wasn't feeling well. He never cared for the kids today at all. All of us have been sick this month. Nobody was so sick they could not communicate. He is functioning on such a minimal level. It's either sleep or anger.

There are so many times I catch myself thinking we'd be better off without him. I don't like the person he's become.