Ugh....

Okay - help on detachment. He's texting me from work. Do I answer all of these texts?

One of the things that is making me SO MAD is that I had a dr. appointment today for something that's a little bit scary (we'll see if it's scary when I get the results back). This morning from the airport he asked me what was on the agenda for today. I had told him - twice - that I had this dr. appointment.

I did not tell him again.

And later he asked me if I was out because I had gone to yoga.

I didn't answer that.

He is so flipping wrapped up in his head that he can't even remember that I (used to be we) may be facing some scary stuff.

I'm mad and I'm sad about that.

Wow - had made it this far into the day before the tears came (it's after lunch), to that's pretty good, but typing this has brought them on. LOL. Pathetic.

Going to coffee with a friend tomorrow. Starting to wonder who I can confide in. We live in a small town so word will travel fast. Some of my closest friends either have worked for his company or have spouses who still work there. I won't tell my family because....well, my family isn't known for being super supportive but is known for being pretty judge.

I'm feeling really really lonely.


Me 43 H 43
Married 18 years
Together 21 years
Two kids, 15 and 13
BD 11/14/13 (but not asking for divorce - just informing me of OW)