Survive - i meant put food on the table and keep a roof over our heads. I never thought i'd lose this job i've been great at for nearly 20 years. I'm afraid i wont find another job and i'm afraid my savings isnt enough to last very long. Those arent RATIONAL fears but they lurk anyway. The unknown is scary. I address it by trying to squelch negative selftalk, working out at the gym, planning my next 6 months out, and taking concrete steps as much as possible toward getting a job. But right now i'm workng around the clock to put together my last convention for this client. And take care of my head injured son. That's what i mean by survive.
Wonder where you're pushing ajm. Toward releasing the anger?
Adinva - For me, if I had lost the job I had done well at the past 20 years then I would be concerned with surviving also and all of the above would be rational fears for me. I personally think you are handling things pretty well. I think it also speaks volumes about your work ethic and character that even though you are losing the client, your focus is on working around the clock to put together the last convention for them. I hope they notice your efforts and it either gives them pause to reconsider the direction they are taking, or encourages them to provide you an excellent letter of reference for your job search.
I know it's easier said than experienced, but I have found it very true that when one door closes another one opens up somewhere. I hope a new door opens up for you sooner rather than later and that your son recovers from his head injury quickly as well.
