Divorce on the table, Hoping for Miracle 2

[Groov]

AS,Fade and NM,

Thank you for your caring words, advice and encouragement.

Quick update,

Last Wed, W contacted my brothers W to ask for advice and help with the real estate in our sitch. Brothers W know the sitch as I have confided in them from the beginning. The also know my values and goal to stand for marriage.

When W first BD'd she went to my brother and talked to them. She gave them the impression that this was a temporary thing to try and work things out. (who knows if that was true though). While SIL was talking to W she called W on this. She also asked what had happened and expressed misunderstanding why she hasn't worked on things. SIL asked if there was another person... at that point SIL said that W walled up and became cold. Then shortly left.

A few hours later W called SIL and expressed that there was no one else waiting in the wings... She also stated that she cried all the way home. SIL was just there for her and is willing to help where needed. SIL told me that W would consider coming back to the marriage if she felt a divine impression, If she felt divinely impressed she said it would be hard...

So... To that. I am not staking hope. I am keeping hope in me and my journey, I am hopeful that W's journey will take her to truth and realization. I do hope we can R at some point. In the mean time. I am painting, playing with kids, I have a coworker moving into my place and renting a room, eating healthy, praying, studying and in general GALing. I am sleeping better, I feel better. I am no longer doom struck.

NM, I really appreciate your example and words! I have been thinking about your outlook and it has really affected me for the better. I am finding more and more happiness in my attempts to work on myself and leave W to W and God... I am 6 months in now. I feel I am in a better place than even 1 month ago. I believe I am accepting things as they are but also know that I have a lot of power in myself to be myself and improve myself. My relationships with others are improving immensely. Who would of that changing myself would be so powerful! Anyway

Thanks all for your continuing help!

AS I read what you post on others forums and find you are a great light here!!! I hope your sitch gets the miracles it deserves!

Groov