"I had read your story and its really beautiful to see that everything worked out, but I have fear when I think....wait 3 years?? Could it be just an obsession?"
So you think I made a stupid decision? That it was some kind of mental issue? That it was just an "obsession" with me?
No it was not an "obsession". It's called marriage. I made a decision to stay for better or worse. Was it easy? Of course not. Every day I questioned why I was doing it. But to me (and again it was a personal decision) it was a commitment to not give up on her. I told her that she could file if she wanted to but I wasn't going to help her as I didn't believe in it and that was it.
"how can I wait 3 years for a person?"
By being strong in yourself.
"What warranty do I have that things will work out? "
There is no "warranty" or guarantee in life. Either you do it or you don't. Simple as that. You let the pain consume you because YOU LET it happen to you. You can also not let it bother you. Some people who can't handle it, commit suicide or do something crazy. It's a choice.
If you don't think you can handle it, then sign the papers and move on.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
