Back home, having a very hard time!!!

[indigo1]

Going back when we were still separated I took W on a short trip. While on the trip OM texted her. At that time it was under his name. It really bothered me and W as she had in the past said he was nothing to worry about. My response was why dont you just change his damn contact to another name so if it happens I don't know.

I put that idea in W's head and she even brought that up when I asked if she thought I was stupid and didn't know it was him texting. I also asked if he is working on his M does his W know he texts you all the time? My W was honest and did not hesitate to tell me no. She said that is their deal not ours to worry about

So basically I know the OM''s intentions. It's my W that has me so lost. Why tell me that tid bit? Why bring up renewing our vows and stuff if she is emotionally attached to OM? She has no reason to stringe me along? I was already out of the house, why ask me to come home if she is into OM. She had the chance to do w/e she wanted. It would seem not to be a matter of OM not willing to leave his W for mine. From where I'm standing he clearly would. Unless working on his M means texting my W all day long.

I am not in denial folks. This is bothering me a lot. I have calmed down and am trying to look at it from every angle.