Hi all, thank you for your replies and support. Lifes Twists, thank you for recommending the book, I will read it. Hope my H is wiling to read it as well.
Ye21, you are right. Like every one here advised me, I need to detach more from him. I have been trying to detach during the past couple months, sometimes I felt better, sometimes worse. But whatever I did, the thing is still progressing to what I do not want to. At the beginning he just wanted to separate. Then he decided to move out. Now it seems he cannot wait to file. I am wondering if I did something pushed him away further? maybe one of the reason is the OW involved.
Also I am not sure if I should agree to discuss the D and child support stuffs with him, or simply tell him I do not want to talk about it now.
Honestly in my heart I can not accept D.


M 18 yrs
5 & 7 yrs old kids
H DB in 4/2013
H moved out in 11/2013