One baby step at a time...

[2ndTimeHurt]

So I had a blast last night with some buddies. During the day I spent about 5 hours doing some electrical work at my friend's house. Then he took me out to dinner with his wife. She wants to do reiki on me. Should be interesting. Then my buddy and I headed out and met up with another friend. Had a great time. I was a super wingman for my friend who has been single for a while and has been in the dumps lately. I picked up some girls for him. He's a shy guy so I had to do most of the work. I'm shy too but sometimes I'll come out of my shell. Anyway, we all went back to his place and stayed up til 8 am. I can't remember the last time I did that. Haha. Let's just say he was a lucky guy. I was a good boy and just entertained the other girl. I felt young again so I guess that's a plus.

Today was a decent enough day. I picked my son up from her place. She needed some help with her tv so I offered to help. We talked a bit about random stuff. I was calm and upbeat considering it kills me knowing she's dating mr. Special. She's been a little more calm around me the last few days and also a little more chatty over texts. Oh ya, she even called yesterday because she was having problems with our son. She said he wanted to see me. So I took that bait and picked them up(she was with her sister that she hasn't seen in over a year because the rest of her family basically disowned her). So much for her not wanting any family time. So back to today... She told me she swallowed her tongue ring just like I did last month. She was having problems getting a new one in so I helped her with that. Very weird that she let me touch her tongue. Ill take that as a positive interaction I guess. Haha.

Anyway, she still seems like her depressed self mixed with happiness and some positive interactions with me.

So that's me acting "as if" I am normal. One day at a time til all the pain and hurt are gone.