It is so interesting to see how much of our situations can be predicted in advance. When I got on the plane, I left all of my worries and fears and sadness behind. I was determined to enjoy by little work break and find myself again. It has been amazing. With the time difference, I have been talking to the boys during the day since they are asleep by the time I get out of my classes. Plus I was trying to get a break from my H. And what happens when I pull back...H starts to pursue. I figured that he would since he knew where I was going and that we would be heading out each night. He wrote me a few times last night and I did not respond. H called this morning and I answered assuming that the kids were calling. The kids did not want to talk but h was really chatty, even flirty. He asked a bunch of questions about what we were doing and where we went. I know that while my H is not sure if he wants me, he does not like the idea of me being with someone else. We hung up and then sent a bunch of texts after. For a few minutes today, it felt like my H was back. But i am very realistic and now that this is just part of the dance and things will go back to normal when I get on the plane when H no longer feels threatened.
