One baby step at a time...

[2ndTimeHurt]

I'm almost positive she left it out for me to see. Just like AS has stated they revert back to junior high mentality. I kept my mouth shut after I saw that.

They've been dating for 3 weeks but probably only see each other 1 or 2 times a week. Which makes me think this guy is creepy but she's eating it up. I have a good feeling this is gonna blow up in her face but the fear of it turning into something long lasting scares the sh*t out of me. One of these days she's gonna have to confide in him for something. She can't keep bottling it up to explode on me. And when she does that, if this guy has half a brain; he will see all kinds of crazy. I've spent years and lots of history(having a child together), to learn to accept her crazy. At least that's the excuse I tell myself. I really hope one day I can post on my thread that this guy in fact was a creep and that he also sensed her craziness and called her on it and she finally gets that wake up call and realises I actually am a decent guy. Bits and pieces of that happened last time... 3rd time a charm right?!?


There are many reasons why I feel guilty. Some are valid and some are not. Still feels sh*tty though. I am very very very grateful that I get to see my son so much. My brother thinks she suffers from some kind of mild lingering postpartum.


One thing about last night that I regret is she weasled out what my plans are for tonight. So much for being mysterious. I told her I was going to do some electrical work for my friend and that he wanted to take me out. Also that his wife wanted to show me something. I didnt tell her what though. So I guess that's a bit of mystery.