You don't have to apologize.

I understand what you are going through. It surely is tough.

Most of us goes through the motions very early on. You'll find them mostly in the 1st or 2nd threads.

M35 XW34
D5 D4
M 6years T 10years
Bomb 5/2013
Joint Petition signed 6/2013
Moved out end of 8/2013
Court Hearing of Joint Petition 9/2013
D finalized in 3 months - no news yet