Back home, having a very hard time!!!

[indigo1]

I called W out on it the night before last. It was after she got back home and I couldent take it anymore. We were sitting there and her phone got a text from OM of course. I simply said I can't do this anymore, I can't sit here and live a lie. W of course tries to deny it at first but finally admitted to texting him.

W claims that he has been a family friend forever and he helped her out a lot while we were separated. That he is back working on his M as well. That they are just friends. I don't know and prolly never will know everything. Yesterday was so much better for me. I felt like this huge wait was lifted from my shoulders. No more snooping around for me. I'm going to trust what my W said and try to be happy.

I just hope it won't come back and bite me in the xxx. I do know that the way I was acting pretending that I did not know was only hurting the way my W viewed me. I'm going to put a smile on my face and be happy. If W wants to join me so be it.