Barrybran II - Six Weeks In

[Barrybran]

I've been deep in thought for much of today about what everyone has said. My wife noticed, asked me what's up and had more to say. She basically agreed with LFW and said I was miserable at home. I don't feel miserable but I'd certainly rather have balance in my life.

I felt better this afternoon. Still largely in thought but I relaxed a little by listening to music while watering the lawn, enjoying dinner with my family outside, watching cricket on TV and looking for jobs.

Last night and today brought to the surface some issues I've had my entire life. I thought I was doing well but the things I did change were fairly easy things. I'll have a look for the book that LFW suggested and go from there.

When things cleared up in my mind I told my wife I'd like to continue having sex. When things started to come good we had discussed our situation and she said that a load had been lifted from her shoulders. This led to a dramatic increase in her libido and we started sneaking around like teenagers. At the time, I really had no expectations, left her alone and did my own thing and we had a great time. Yes, I will have to manage my feelings but I enjoy it, it's a confidence boost and it's something we can enjoy together. She didn't dismiss it, expressed her concerns about me detaching and said she'd get back to me.

Thanks for the insight again. Reading again I see a different perspective to what I had.