New experience tonight ... after dinner we went out to a club. We hung out and everyone drank although i took it easy after last night. For the first time in years and years I got hit on by a guy. It felt good. We just talked. He was divorced and has a kid. He did not run away when I told him I had kids, which is a huge fear that I have that no one will want to be with a mom of three little ones. It was good to see that I really do have options if my M does not work out. I don't have to grow old alone. I still want my H but I think it will help to alleviaw some of my fears. Off to bed before another day of classes tomorrow. This trip could not have come at a better time. I needed some time to just be 3 and nothing else.
