I guess, to be honest, S6 loves me. D10 has been told a lot of stuff by W when W was mad at me, so she is nervous. She tends to defend her mom no matter what, as most kids do. Even if W apologizes and says she was wrong, D10 still tends to harbor it. W treated my kids awful the first couple of years, so they have serious trust issues.
I think my biggest struggle right now is apathy. I do love W, and I do believe in marriage. She says she is committed 100%, but if we have any sort of disagreement or argument, W basically retreats to a hole - said hole being in her apartment in her bed behind her phone.
She'll then ignore me for 2-3 days, until she decides to pop back out again. It's miserable. She won't read any book suggestions like 5LL, even after promising to get. She won't schedule counseling. Most recently, I found out that she hadn't blocked OM from texting on her phone like she said she did - she swears it was just a "mistake". I told her it seemed very suspicious, but let it go
I know many people will say, 'Boy I wish my W would say that stuff" - but believe me, this is no fun, literally exhausting.
