Feeling all kinds of emotions today.

Moving out, trying to work through it. Got a fax from the dentist regarding the balance due on Evan's dental. H has been claiming he has been paying on this dentist bill but he has not paid one red cent. My attorney told me to put a payment on it but that's just not right. It makes me so angry that H can get away with his bad behavior. It makes me want to punish him and hurt him but that isn't good either.

This is setting the precedent for how this stuff is gonna go in the future. I need to let go of this anger and unfairness. It seems to be swallowing me up. It's consuming me.

This financial garbage will not stop. He refuses to agree to allow the child placement order to go into place unless we agree to his terms on the financial, even though he has signed the PMSA. I am beyond frustrated.

I leave it to the lawyer and I owe money. And my lawyer is a busy man and in the meantime I have all this swirling in my head. I'm glad I have this board to vent to.

How can he be allowed to get away with this? He's just such a jerk. But I need his help and to keep peace in the house for now. So I have to con the con so to speak.

BTW our house stinks. Literally stinks. I came home and there are all kinds of funky smells everywhere. What is H's solution? Buy air fresheners. So fake good smell on top of the stink. Not pleasant. Our living room smelled so much of dog last night it was unbelievable. I have never smelled the dog so much as I did last night. I asked H why the dog odor was so strong and he had no idea and was wondering about that himself. What's the solution? More febreze.

Calgon take me away!

WH


AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012
Two kids, one dog
D Final 6/18/14
J marries OW 1/24/15
"No matter where you go, there you are"