Just when I think things are going well, my heart gets torn out again. Even though I have hope, I must come to the realization that WAW is truly Done with this Marriage and wants out. Her wall is up and I can feel the resentment towards me. She speaks in absolute negatives.
We are still living together which is hard because at times it doesn't even feel like were getting a divorce. I dont think either one of us has come to the FULL realization of what life is going to be like after the BD. We dont talk much (if any) about the Divorce, the future, whats going to happen etc. The elephant is in the room, but we dont really discuss it.
As of late the current living arrangements have been frustrating WAS. We trade nights on the blow up mattress which we move in the living room each night. She said she doesnt have any privacy in her own home and feels frustrated. She also states it doesn't make sense to move out until the Divorce is final (i think the attorney has something to do with that).
So the other night (out of nowhere) she mentioned getting bunk beds and moving the boys in one room so we could have our own space. I know it doesnt seem like much, but it just made me feel that she's slipping that much further away. The realization hit that she needs/want to be away from me and It hurt, my heart felt like it was getting ripped out again. I didnt engage much as it came out of left field. I did say, well maybe not bunk beds at this point, maybe just a bed frame and move both beds into the bigger room. this is what she wants and I feel I have no control about her decision. That was about all that was said, but I think I need to discuss it further.
Should I be honest and tell her how I feel, How it torn my heart out when I heard her say that. Should I tell, while I dont agree, I do understand where your at? Should I tell her, W it hurts me to hear you say that you want to be separate from me. Or do I roll with it and act like its perfectly fine.
Me: 39 W: 33 M: 9 years T: 10 years S7 S10 BD 10/19/13 W Filed 11/25/13 EA Confirmed 2/2/14 (no evidence of PA) WAW moved out 3/15/14
