separted six weeks still on the journey - II

[paul19510]

Journal: my detachment process continues. I got up at 515 went to the church to clean went to the gym after that. I got a text from D13. Could I take her and S 12 to school. W apparently couldnt for some reason. I just sent a yes as reply and kept moving. In past that might have prompted a call or text to ask why. Today I avoided that and remained nc. W asked D13 to get a ride from me and that 's what got arrainged. I realized it was not important to find out why.

I am noticing a sense of peace without dealing with the rejection from W. That is a positive from this. I have a clearer mind now. I am noticing myself mentally looking over my shoulder for W but its happening less now. My goals for the next few days is just to notice when it happens and acknowledge it.

I am trying to make goals that are shorter into the future for now eg. The next few hours or days....that seems easier to work with. I noticed a sense of
discomfort as I move through this. Almost like a child leaving home (a familiar
place ) as I venture out into the world from my homenstreet, I mentally see myself looking back at home. I need to read the map and keep walking. In a strange way after writing this I guessmy W may also experience some of this. I can empathise but I must walk alone. Have a great day all.