H was on top of the world happy today. I had to text about D and he actually said he appreciated something I did. D called him tonight and I could hear him all jolly. That should make me glad but I want him sad and regretting his decision. LOL Really big of me huh?
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In other news, my router went out and I fixed it myself! I only asked H what the password was and when he kept talking about what I needed to do I said, 'I've got it handled, all I needed was the password.'
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Last night H sent me a text about taking D to school today so he wouldn't have to make 2 trips between that and pick up for visitation. I agreed and asked if he wanted me to drop her off half way tonight but he declined. Then he offered me a router/modem to replace the other one. What? I declined since I had one coming today and had fixed the other temporarily and then I thanked him for the offer.
Tonight he comes for pick up and brings the router "until the other comes". I told him the other one was here but thank you for bringing it and offering. He was very nice and we had a positive but brief contact. I'm not sure what to make of the sudden nice H, I figure he's going to hit me up to reduce the support amount. Waiting on the other shoe to drop.
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You know those days when you're down and need some encouragement? Today was a day like that for me. I got up to go to pick up my food box (check out One Harvest if you need information on affordable food) and the lady wanted to see if I had a prayer request. Well, why not? I need as many prayers as I can get! I put my H, me and D down and that he was depressed and had left and to pray that God works in his life. Folded it up, turned it in and left with my food. Before I could leave the parking lot the lady was running to my car and asking to pray right then. She said one of the men there was on the prayer committee and wanted to know the request so he could pray immediately. She read it and said her heart broke and she had to see if she could catch me. We prayed there in my car for H. She said they would continue to pray for God to work in H's life and the situation we are in.
God sends people into your life at the time you need them. Prayer can only help this situation, right?
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I'm definitely weirded out by H's recent behavior. I had a stomach bug yesterday and text him that I wouldn't be calling D that night because I was going to bed early. I actually got a hope you feel better soon! We met today for me to get D and he actually stood and talked a bit before he left. Not drop and leave the way he has done before but talking (about D but still...)
I know it's too soon for him to be coming around but at least I don't feel like I'm the devil incarnate to him, right now.
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I'm not sure I did the right thing. Last night D told me she could have item x if 'you didn't have to take all of Daddy's money'. :0 Well I told her the truth. That Daddy would have money if he hadn't left, that he now had to support 2 households, and that he owed it to her to keep a roof over her head and food on her table whether he had any or not! Too much information for a 9 year old I'm sure. No excuses, I was just mad that someone was blaming me (again) for the whole situation. I'm sure she'll share this info with H at some point and I'll hear the spew once again. Some days I need a muzzle!
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I had to go get new jeans for work, I'm tired of bootcut and wanted straight leg. All they have was skinny! I feel like my shins are in tights! They don't look bad but dang, these things are weird.
So does anyone know if they make straight leg for women anymore? And where would I get them?
Well I've been sick since Tuesday with a cold (joys of teaching children) and took today off to rest. I'm sick and that has led to feeling down about the situation. But the last 2 days I've gotten intercessory prayer cards in the mail from people praying for my situation and family. I get down and God sends me a pick me up! Now to just keep plugging at this and fully detach.
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