Hi PM... I TOTALLY understand. Just when I think I am "ok" and have accepted, and I am almost even excited..I begin to take another step forward... only to do so, and then put myself in tears again. That was me Yesterday. BUT, That was YESTERDAY... today I accept again.

The rollercoaster is not only the ride that they put us on, but the one that we choose to ride on our own. (if that makes any sense).

I think for me, acceptance started to creep in when I started wanting MORE for myself. Wanting a reciprocating love. Wanting unconditional love. Realizing that I deserve it. So, now I am holding out for THAT. I look at him, and "accept" that he is not quite there right now (not for me or anyone). Looking deep within myself realizing that I have self-worth helps. Listening to hypnotherapy CD's that boost MY ego... make me force and rise to acceptance. Maybe you could look into that? Might be worth a shot??

Good luck PM... (in the same boat)

M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)