Four weeks in, hopeful but just starting!

[KGirl]

Ugh. I definitely pursued today and got smacked (emotionally, not physically, don't worry). I knew I probably shouldn't but I guess I just couldn't help myself...
Texted H this morning(paraphrasing here) that I was having a lot of racy dreams lately and wondering if he'd be interested in hooking up tonight. No answer all day. Come home, first thing out of H's mouth is "are you going to the grocery store tonight?" So I have to say..
Me: I don't know... are you going to answer my text? A simple yes or no is fine, I was just curious.
H: I don't know. I've been thinking about it
*not sure what "it" is.. my text? us? who knows*
Me: Do you want to talk about it? I'm happy to listen.
H: I don't understand why you'd want to do it.
*that is definitely referring to my text..*
Me: Well... I'm still attracted to you and the urge just doesn't go away...
H: Where was that 2 years ago?
Me: I know, I wasn't good about that in the past. I realize that now and if you'd give me a chance to show you..
H: We've already talked about this. There's nothing more to talk about.
*pause*
Me: OK, fine. Yes, I'm going to the store.
H asks if I can get him a loaf of bread...
WT*..? What I would like to say is "If you're so 'done' then why don't you get your *** in gear and serve me some D papers? What the heck are you doing still here and still talking to me and being nice? and asking me to get you bread?"
So now I just feel like crap being reminded that he's "done". I REALLY need to figure out how to not think about him or wanting to involve him in my life and just ignore him and think about me. Hard when he keeps asking me things like "were you making anything for dinner?" or "are you going to the store tonight?" I kinda want him to just go away and leave me alone.