bent not broken

[willbwell]

I went to a D/S support group meeting last night at a community church.
The topic was healing. my tears just would not stop.
I have been 20 months at this now. I know it is a process that we have to go thru.
I guess last night I was wondering. When do I move on? I have been standing for my M because my h does such the MLC script. I do feel sad for h.
H has given no mixed messages what so ever about trying to restore the M. I am thinking I am the one just dragging this out and thus putting off my own healing. How can I be completely healed and still stand waiting for h? as long as I stand, I think I have hope in my heart.
H doesn't want r with me.
I want to heal