Back home, having a very hard time!!!

[indigo1]

I know I probably should not have snooped, but I did and now I know. I can try to block it out and hope it goes away if I know for a fact it just over the phone. If I find it's physical bye bye time. I will not tolerate that in any way.

Man I remember two months ago being separated thinking this would be so much easier if I was home. Guess I was wrong. The hardest part is trying to be the new me with this enormous lie in the room the whole time. Being afraid to truly open up to my W and be in love.