Busting,

So good to hear your update.

The advice you have been given sounds spot-on.

Steady as you go, and lots of watching.

In the meantime, you sound really good. I know what you mean about wondering how you would be now, with H back in the picture.

I was thinking about this myself last night.
What would XH bring to my life if he were back?
I came up with sex... and intimacy.
Is that enough?

Like you, idk anymore, but i feel good on my own now (what an achievement for us!).

I love the sound of your rowing - something I've always wanted to do... I'm still driving S15 to and from the river in the early hours. One day i'll do it myself!

Best to you.