To be honest I know how emo this sounds but I'm not happy at the moment and it seems like I should be.
W texted me this morning concerning lunch date later this week, basically asking me if I'd like to ML instead of going to a restaurant. I didn't quite know how to respond, sent a joke instead and her response was also funny, assuming the answer was yes...I'm actually not sure I do.
Then later she asked me to reserve a hotel room near our homes. I understand why it can't be at my place, SS is there all day...but why not her place? I guess it's not entirely the point anyway.
The point is this. At this point she's someone I barely know that caused & still causes me a lot of stress. I've tried a few times to meet her and hang out, she's not interested. I thought we'd have a chance to connect and talk but she changed the plan.
There's no connection. There's no spark. There's stress, months of pain, no more friendship, I'm not a part of her life, she has no time for me and she's "not sure what she wants". If this is TMI I apologize but I don't have an easy time getting hard for her even though I still see her as smoking hot...and that adds on another ton of bad vibes I don't want to deal with.
How am I supposed to explain this?
Resentment occurs when we aren't doing what we need to care for ourselves, though we expect others to do it for us.
