fade, Thanks for the advice, you've given me a lot to consider. I'm not planning on making it easy for her, if she goes through with a divorce, I'm willing to be reasonable, but I don't think she understands how bad even a 'fair' divorce will be for her. I'm hoping it doesn't come to that, but It would be good to have effective back up if it becomes necessary.
AnotherStander, Yes, it is interesting how these things almost have a script to them that WAS seem to follow. In my case she hasn't turned against me yet, she said just the other day that I was a good husband and a good father, but who knows how she'll feel next week or month. I have done a lot of soul searching and have found things in myself that I need to improve besides the one issue she has had with me, and Im making efforts to be the best me I can be. The marathon part is what scares me honestly, I've been holding together pretty well so far, but I worry about how long I can take it.... its very difficult. But it is important to me too.
As for the D papers, I understand what you're saying but when I asked her she said she was going to to send them in this week, but now shes holding off, Once she has a plan she usually pulls the trigger so I'm not sure if it wasn't a good thing I spoke with her about it. I'll try not to bring it up again, and keep on with the self improvements, and hope her heart can soften enough to let me in again.
