Back home, having a very hard time!!!

[indigo1]

I know what I should do and you guys are right. What is going on is not fair to me. I have all I can do to look her in the eyes. Last night she was drink at the house and got very emotional and started crying. Saying that I can't help her, it's her guilt and confusion and she needs to work thru it. That me seeming down is making it worse on her. I asked what she meant by her guilt and she kinda avoided it.

I'm so scared to lose my M over basically proving to her I know. My thoughts are for my D future at this point and I'm basically praying to god that it stops on its own without me having to do what should be done. I don't know how long I can go on like this. Today again she has been texting him nonstop. I feel like I'm going to throw up all the time.

I know W is extremely depressed and very much still in MLC mode. I just can't continue to pretend everything is fine. I'm going to hold on as long as I can, but the next time she asks to go out with her girl friends I fear it will be the end. I know where she will be going.

Sorry for all the rambling, I don't k ow what else to do right now.