I am not saying she is crazy, I am saying that she never communicated with me since day one, that she was abused and everything was put on me, and because of that, after a year I felt I didn't and couldn't support her dream of being an actress, you can support somebody but not with your eyes closed, and she was asking for that, I had to give up all my dreams, buy a house, leave an hour from NY to enjoy nature just because she will not do that effort, so basically all the effort had to be on me, either living in Brooklyn or living in Los Angeles, it was no other chance, and that's not what she said when we started. I feel compassion for her, I would love to help her, but MrBond you are not in the relationship to see the things, and let me tell you that if you are being abused you will always believe its your fault, I have been feeling guilty of wanted to have kids, guilty of wanted to save money together, guilty of wanted to buy a house, guilty of going out with my friends, guilty of telling her please don't make fun of me on front of my friends, and now I even felt guilty of her leaving the house, without even trying to talk about it, she just contacts me by email and its all to talk about bills, I can blame myself but I have to recognice reality and I wasn't guilty for everything.
I know you try to put people in reality, and that's what the people around me its doing as well, asuume that a person calling you [censored] everytime you fight, or I hate you, I regret ever met you or married you and you are a looser...its not really just an upset moment, silent treatments everytime I will ask her to clean after her mess its not me blaming her, its me seeing the reality, I can go back to a whole and beliee all was my fault, but I have to recognize it wasn't...
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
